Wednesday, January 29, 2014

The infinite wave

I've been thinking about time a lot lately, and I thought of another way to describe it.  Not being well read in this subject, I'm sure this is not a new idea, but it's interesting to think of time this way for me.

When we think of time, we think of it as a linear progression of perceived moments.  Because of this, we tend to think of time as a single axis of a multi-dimensional grid.  In our case, we are in a 3 dimensional universe with a supposed 4th dimension representing time progression.  So given this classical view of time, let me try to describe how I view time.

Imagine yourself standing alone in the middle of an infinite void.  You see nothing else around you and you are the single representation of man in the universe.  Now imagine you see the progression of time as the aging of your body.  So on a single axis, in one direction you grow younger, and in another direction, you grow older.  So far, this is the typical view of time.

Now imagine that you are viewing this from the "zero" point, what would be called "now".  At this point, the body is the current "you".  It is the current "you" because you are looking at the younger and older "you" relative to that point.  Just a moment earlier, you were looking at your younger and older "you" from the position of the body one "moment" before.  And each time you perceive, you are no longer at the last "moment" point, but the next one.  So "you" as the perceiver, not the body, is moving along this axis towards the older self.

Now imagine that at each "moment" point, there are other axis.  These axis represent different probabilities from that "moment" point.  In other words, suppose you ate too much over time, then you would diverge towards a different axis, and your body would age differently along this new "time" axis.  It would result in a different path of aging.  Now imagine a multitude of such diverging axis at each "moment" point, each representing choices altering the future self.  Now, you look "forward" towards your older self, and you see a multitude of possible outcomes.  This represents the uncertainty of the future from your point of view.  The previous moment has its own set of probable futures, but you took a branch and so those paths are no longer available to you.

Now imagine someone else shows up in this universe.  They are far or near to you, but they also have all of these axis from their "moment" point.  Some of them intersect some of your probable paths.  When this occurs, you are able to meet that person sometime in one of your probable future paths.  But no matter what, every moment for both of you have their own probable future paths, and both of you are traveling down one of these.

At each "moment" point, you are making decisions incredibly fast.  So fast, that you are unaware of these choices.  It's only when you willingly think about what you want to do, does time seem to stop and give you a chance to pick a path.

I think this description so far is a good representation of how most people view time.  Now let's go a step further.

Imagine now that instead of a body, you see every molecule of your body as individual elements.  Go one step further and imagine you can see every atom of every molecule.  Going further, you can see every sub-atomic particle of every atom.  Then ultimately, you can see every sub-atomic particle's true form, it's wave-like characteristic of energy.  We already saw this energy as particles (the sub-atomic particles and atoms and molecules), but now imagine them as waves.

Take the same time axis and now overlay that with all of the waves that make up you into a single plane.  This wave changes over the length of the axis.  The change represents the aging process of your body.  But unlike the body representation, this wave goes forever forwards and backwards.  At every "moment" point, you are but a signal of this wave pattern.  And at every "moment" point, the branching of probabilities represent the wave spreading out beyond the single axis.  It is a plane of wave activity.  With the multitude of waves, each representing a sub-atomic particle, you have a very complex waveform.  It's like a very complex symphony, with every piece playing in harmony.  Even the perception of discord is a perfect harmony.

Now I'm not suggesting there is a 3 dimensional plane for the wave.  It is simply a descriptive way to imagine 3-D matter as 3-D energy waves.  Even a wave is a visual representation of this thing we call "energy" or the "infinite nothingness".  The true nature of everything isn't physical at all but it is "nothing" meaning it isn't something discrete, concrete or finite and is instead infinite, so trying to describe it in visual terms is only for the benefit of analogy.  See how difficult it is to write about something that has no visual description in terms that you can recognize?

Given this description, there are many questions.  "How can I see?", "Where is the other person?", "Why do I see beginnings and endings?", etc.

"How can I see?" is a good question, but one based on the belief that sight is a function of physical senses, namely the eyes.  But perception is not about sight.  It is about feeling and recognition.  These are cognitive activities of mind.  When you perceive, it is the sensation of the waves.  The waves create a pattern and that pattern is recognized as sight.  The "you" is the wave, just as in the original description, the "you" was the body that you imagine.  If you think about this, your body is the 3-dimensional representation of "you" as the wave.  The wave became a particle and thus you can "see" it.  You focus on one point of this wave to perceive your state of being.  This is a psychological inspection of yourself.  You are examining your characteristics as a pattern.

"Where is the other person?" again is based on sight.  Before, you only saw single dimensional lines representing paths of intersection.  But with the wave, there is no path, and instead, there is always intersection.  What you thought was the crossing of paths is really the examination of a point where your wave pattern and the other person's wave pattern coincide, and each individual's focus meets.  In other words, there are other times you could have met physically, but both of you did not focus at the same point.  Think in terms of a surf.  You cannot see the surf until two waves meet rising up.  The two combine to create a bigger wave and so people can see it.  But the point isn't that you didn't see them.  The point is that you and the other person are always in connection to each other as overlapping waves in a single infinite sea of waves.  You can perceive them, even if you cannot see them, because of this infinite wave pattern of every person.

"Why do I see beginnings and endings?" is because your wave pattern creates these perceptions, just as the wave patterns create the body pattern.  The wave rises and falls and is perceived as particles in what you consider "space".  The "space" is a psychological concept of distance.  Distance is normally measured in terms of separation of physical matter, but psychologically, it is a measure of emotional separation.  I "feel" far from the wall or the ocean or the planets, and as a psychological manifestation, the wave pattern creates this illusion of distance.  We imagine the wave plane in space because we were taught how to visualize dimensions.  So where is the wave if there is no space?  The wave is everywhere and everything.  It is all dimensions, not just one or two or three.  The idea of space is so wrapped up in the 3 dimensions, since we are a part of that and specialized to perceive that, it's very difficult to imagine what 4 or 5 or 1000 dimensions would "look" like.  The easiest way to imagine non-space is to imagine that moving your hand in front of you could mean your hand is behind you and above you and a million miles away all at the same time.  This is multi-dimensionality.

If you are still with me in my explanation, imagine now that on top of this wave, you have the waves of every individual that ever existed.  And on top of that, every living creature that ever existed, and every non-living thing that ever existed, and every imaginary thing that ever existed, and every thing else that you never thought ever existed.  You have this very complex wave form composed of an infinite number of individual waves, each making its own pattern within the entire wave pattern.  To make things more interesting, imagine that many of these other individuals were what people call "past lives".  This means your past life is not someone that came "before" you were born.  Instead, they are existing now as a pattern overlapping your own life.  The same is true of a future life.  There are many future experiences that exist now because time is a function of focus within this wave pattern.  The idea of reincarnation is now the idea of simultaneous lives and this allows for the bleed-through of past lives (think of child geniuses), future lives (predictions), but on a daily basis, the inspirations and imaginations that come to each of us in our current lives through this "unconscious" perception from other wave patterns.

"You" perceive yourself because you are a point of focus.  Using something called "consciousness", you observe from your point of focus, and direct that focus at other points.  As you direct your focus, a new focus is created and from that focus, you perceive yourself as a living being.  Perception is not limited, but you choose to either tighten your focus or expand your focus.  When you tighten your focus, you perceive less and less, but you gain much more detail, and experience the subtleties of that point of focus.  This is how you experience life, as a tight focus within a narrow dimension of a small subset of your entire wave pattern, just so you can experience the subtleties of a probability.  "You" are able to have multiple focuses, but each of those points of focus are themselves capable of individual perceptions.  How is a focus able to perceive?  That is the ultimate question of "what am I", which would be answered as "I am that which is".  In other words, there is no answer because the question is meaningless.  It's like asking yourself "how can I be aware of myself?"  Focus is really the ability to examine yourself, introspection, which is consciousness (awareness).  This is not something that is easy to explain, but even if you knew the answer, would it really change anything?  Would you be more satisfied?  Would you be more knowledgeable and for what gain?  All of these questions lead to the question of "who am I?"  And so to answer that question, "I" experience all possibilities for the answer through each focus.

What should be interesting, if you're catching on, is that the description of the infinite wave is no different than the idea of "God".  But unlike the religious idea of "God", the infinite wave is not a personality, nor is it a human being at all.  But more than that, "you" are a focus of this infinite wave, but you are also a part of this infinite wave.  That focus, could be thought of as a "soul" or "entity", and the "you" in the body life is the focus of your "soul".  You as physical being are the "particle" aspect of the quantum wave/particle duality; you are a discrete "observable" aspect of your "probable" infinite wave property.

While in the body, you look towards your younger self and feel like those moments have past and is no longer available to experience.  But from the perspective of your "whole" self - focusing on the wave pattern - you can view and experience the past all over again.  So how can you be "in the body", and yet I'm saying you're not the body?  Again, while "you" are focused very tightly on a life experience, you in the body are taking in all of those experiences from the perspective of the body.  If it did not, it would not be able to experience that life.  That is the whole point of focus; to be immersed.  When you watch a movie or a TV show, if you do not focus on the drama in front of you, you do not catch the emotion, the hints, the little tidbits of subtle innuendos that the writers and directors put into them, and so you do not experience the drama completely.  The same can be said about the life experience from the perspective of "you".  Once your focus leaves the body, you return to the "soul" focus, and both aspects of "you" share in the experience.

So time as we perceive it is really the result of only viewing things from the point of "now" towards one or the other direction.  When we imagine a probable future, or even a probable past, we are viewing different paths that are available and have been available.  All of these are the result of this infinite wave pattern that is our true nature.  While I describe our true nature as a "wave", we are not just a squiggly line on a graph paper.  It is merely a description of something that is continuous, with no beginning or end, and is co-mingled with everything.

Here's is a fascinating NDE account that was just posted that describes what I'm trying to say from an NDE'rs perspective.  Much of what is written is very similar to what I've written in this post and my post on The Nature of Reality.  This amazes me, since I've never read this NDE before and it was only posted after I wrote my posts.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

"Candide" by Voltaire

I started to read the book "Candide" by Voltaire.  Half way through it, however, I got so frustrated with Candide's naive ignorance that I had to stop.  The calamities that befell him in his life were both self-created and expected.  Since the book mostly details the events surrounding Candide's life, it's hard not to feel like Voltaire was trying to make some negative statement regarding Candide's philosophical teacher Pangloss' belief that "everything is right in the world".  But having skipped to the last chapter, rather than continue to read all of the trials and tribulations that occurs, it's interesting to see what I think is Voltaire's (if not subtle) conclusion to the story.